Tweets Just For You

- I am craving a delicious beefy goat cheese hamburger...yummm...i cant wait to eat it together

- God's love and forgiveness can prardon and restore any and every kind of sin or wrongdoing. It doesnt matter who you are or what youve done. It doesnt matter if you've delibertly oppressed or even murdered people, or how much you've abused yourself. The Prodigal God

- i will worship you for who you are...Jesus...

dude thanks for taking such a great care of me....yupppers

no idea

i think its cool how we impact other peoples lives and possibly have no idea. there are three people who i can think of right now who have sincerely impacted me in a way where im pretty sure they have no idea.

thats pretty baller to think about how God uses us, and we have no idea sometimes...

if at all possible

J,

If at all possible id love for an "easy" romance. I know that I've always envisioned the long drawn out dramatic epic ten stories awesome love story, filled with ups and downs but none the less the kind of story that would make a great movie but deffinetly filled with lots of tears.

well, ive changed my mind. maybe im growing up. maybe im exhausted, who knows. but J, i would love for it to be "easy". for us to meet, dait and get married. not meet, dait, hear break, break up, get back together break up, blah blah blah.

I know in the past i can be some what "hard" on guys. I am trying to figure out how to be less like that. mind you im not going to loose who i am or my confidence, but more of a gentle spirit. not such a fighter, more of a lover.

anyways, i know heart break is a part of life, and an "easy" relationship would FREAK me out. but i think im on my way to be ready for one. and i know even in an "easy" relationship, ill still get my heart broken (or aleast alittle bruised).

i really like the noshen of "new men, in twenty ten". i like the idea of releasing all hopes from all previous to twenty ten.

basically what i am saying is, im learning to trust you. whatever, whoever, however. i am learning to trust you.

thanks,

ruth

getting personal

realizations. i dont express my saddness very often. normally i just get depressed and hold it in. i avoid people when i am sad. i escape to other realities such as my tv shows. oh i love my tv shows. i spent i have no idea how many hours weekend nights i spent with my movies and tv shows last year. last year was rough.

hope. this year has been filled with so much hope. slow healing. geunine happiness. the geunine enjoyment of people more than my other realities. i like how we were created to not be fully independent. we were created with a need for others.

tonight i played volley ball with friends. i messed up alot, but laughed alot. it was great.

today has been filled with so much hope. i do miss my sister though.

fill me up and pour me out

Jesus,

What do we do? My heart hurts. ahhhgg...it aches. I want to do something.

Jesus strip me, prepare me. I want to be your hands for the hurting, i want to hug them, i want to be your feet, i want to go where they are. I want to serve them, and love them. Who can i serve, who can i love?

Jesus there are hurting people right here everywhere, its so hard. Show me how to love and serve. I feel so much but feel so incapable. I want to be filled with you so that i can overflow with your love.

a world with no God

I feel as though i am a pretty emphathetic person. I may not show it, but i feel very deeply and tend to carey others peoples pain. Its not always good because most of the time the feelings cripple me and then i have no idea what to do.

Lately, i have been walking around with this ache on my heart. Everywhere i look there is people hurting. Just last night Haiti got hit with the worst earthquake in 200 years. It feels wrong me sitting at my desk, on a computer while just a few hours away, pure chaos, people are suffering.

I use to have such an issue with pain, be so angry at God for allowing it. But can you imagine a world with no hope, with no God, with no purpose? When pain happens for no reason. No redemption comes from it. People die and thats it. People hurt and thats it. How could people go on with life?

Although i still don't know how to deal with pain and suffering and it still breaks my heart, I am so thankful that there is a God who does. A God who can and will redeem the pain in our lives. Who has a purpose. A loving purpose.

tomorrow. wait later today.

later today is the wedding. the last four months have been a whirl wind of emotions. all ranges.

im tireder than a turtle after a long race.

the end.