What Christmas Means To Me

Jesus,

Thank you. Thank you for coming to earth. Thank you for what that means. It means a lot to me. I don’t even know all the way that it means to me.

But thank you. Christmas, as you know. Has always been hard for me. It has always been filled with tears and feelings like I don’t belong. Christmas in highschool was filled with hurt and wishing I could have Kyle as my boyfriend. That’s all I ever asked for for Christmas. Everything had to be a secret and I hated it.Well, last night while at the Christmas eve service I was filled with so much joy.

Your birth means so much. Your birth means that I am loved. It means that I am capable of love, peace, joy, and hope and of course so much more. Your birth means that I always have someone in my corner. I have a bigger thing to believe in, to trust in. It means that when those I love die who love you, I will see them again. What a HUGE promise.

i am not enough

Tonight I do not feel like enough. In every aspect….my outer beauty, my abilities, my worth, with friends, my sister, a moh….my time, my work…the things i desire to do but just dont know how...my passions for the world...

I feel burdened….saddened by this…


Then I read John 6 where Jesus feeds the 5 thousand. All the little boy had to give was a few loaves of bread and some fish. Definitely not enough to feed all the people. But he gave ALL that he had.

Jesus just took what the little boy could give. And He didn’t just make it enough. He made it more.

Jesus does that with me (and you). I am not enough. But , if I am willing to give him all of me and trust Him he will do abundantly more than just make me enough. He will make me more than enough, he will work in me and not just compensate my flaws and misgivings but lead me to abundant life.

Through him i can love people i never thought i could, and honestly. I can have peace in situations i thought impossible, praise Jesus when my heart aches, and be not only just satisfied but over joyed in seasons which i thought would be lonely and full of heart ache. Through his abundances i can fail, i can be not enough.

Goodness gracious, what an amazing gift we have this Christmas....and next time satan tempts you to despair by telling you that you are not enough, tell him..."you are absolutely correct, but THANK GOD...He IS enough!"

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