its time...

its time to let go. to learn from the past. but to let go. to validate hurt. to let myself grieve. but to let go. dont hold on.

its time to let go.

my new nephew

last night i held my very first nephew for the very first time.

i looked at him. so precious. so tiny. so pure. so beautiful. he didnt have to do anything and yet i couldn't wipe the smile from my face. he was just being a baby, wiggaling around and making some noise. i knew i loved him but i barely even knew him at all. i could wait for him to grow up, knowing i would grow to love him more and more. but also wishing that i could freeze time, and stay in this beautiful moment.

i prayed for him as i held him and was interrupted by a quiet whisper, "beloved, that is how i look at you. i see you as an innocent, pure, beautiful child. all you have to do is, be you, the one i created and you make me smile. i know the depth of who you are and i love you. i created you in your mothers womb just as i created jonathan. "

babies are an amazing gift. a gift created by the love of two people. i am so thrilled that he is my nephew. and so thankful that heather and benjamin have this gift.