Narnia

Narnia

What did i think about Narnia? i cried my eyes out.

I dont want to fight wars, id rather just hide out in the woods like the beavers. I cried, my heart ached becaues of the reality of war, the battle we have to fight every day. How hard it is to win, how many die.

I belive that Narnia depics our Spirtual life. And like they fought against King Miraz to free themselves from the his bondage, we fight again Satan to free our flesh from spirtual bondage.

Spirtually, life is hard, there are seaons of peace, and seasons of constant battles. The enemy is ruthless, taintalizing...out to steal kill and destroy.

I love lucy (pun not intended). She is someone i want to be like. She is someone that i admire. She is someone I can relate to. I feel like at times i can see Jesus. I see him in the trees, i see him. But sometimes im too afraide to stand up and claim it. To trully belive.

Lucy is scared, but Aslan says something about how she is so brave. Im that little girl crossing the bridge, facing her fears, with a tiny sword. Laughable. But then from Behind there is a lion, strong, and powerful. He is able to conquer with the slightest breath.

Many thougth that there was not enough "plot line" in the movie but i felt like the plot line was powerful and life like. Sometimes all there is in life is battles. Sometimes that is the plot. Battles are constant, real, everywhere.

Do i want to stand and fight? Get hurt and possibly die? Or hide in the back of the battle where it feels slightly a bit more "safe"

I cried because i was angry. Angry that God created a world that has so much fear. A world where battles are a necessity. I would love peace. But in reality that wont happen until the end of time. Until that day, at any moment tragity can hit.


January 13th

Just like how it appeared that God had abondoned Narnia, i had felt that God had abondoned me. He hadnt been seen in years...


this time when i rewatched narnia, i have a completely different perspective. One of hope.

oldest boy: why wouldnt i have seen him?
Lucy: maybe bc you werent really looking


all the narniasn are in a sense on the same side. But many of them turned against one of another. Just like how us follows of Christ do. We turn on one another when trully our enemy is Satan.


a squrall: Is this possible, do you really think we can have peace?

we must prepare for battle...even now....


Walking over the bridge:


even the trees, the leaves teh wind, they are groan for the Glory of God.

quotes from aslan:
aslan, youve grown
every year you grow, so shall i
why didnt you come help us?
things never happen the same way twice dear one

wait...

who have i in heaven but you?
thought my heart my fail me
you are my strength

wait for the long...
those who wait on the Lord will rise on wings like eagles...


You cant hurry love
No, you just have to wait
You got to trust, give it time
No matter how long it takes
-diana ross


everywhere i go its hurry hurry. i hate waiting, hate waiting, i always want to grow up fast, always want the next stange in my life. wanted boobs, then my period, couldnt wait till i was 16 to have my first boyfriend, couldnt wait till it was Gods time, couldnt wait till i was healed, couldnt wait to say babys, to say i love you... but now i must wait. i must wait before the Lord on his time, wait to hear from God, wait until i get sent somewhere, wait to graduate, i must wait until i talk to phillip, wait to see my boyfriend, wait to buy myself things....wait...it actually feels good...

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dealth

dealth

im struggling....


I have this gift/curse....where i take on the burdens of others. It may not seem from the outside but inside i just ache.


I wonder God, why? Why is pain so rampant in the world? Why does dealth sting so bad? I feel so helpless. I want to just avoid the pain, i feel as though i need to be strong for others. I dont show how it affects me

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